It is some thing about this time of year that always makes me feel a bit frantic even when I try to keep things on my calendar and my to-do lists to a minimum. Maybe it is the shorter days, the madness of the crowds everywhere I go, the fact that it is the end of the year and there are things left undone...I don't know, but it seems that in December I consistently want to grab a bottle of wine, the TV remote, a warm pair of jammies and head to bed until January! Never seems to happen, though!
I think I am also fighting some mental anxiety about a number of things going on with family and friends, mostly health related. As a serious control freak, I find it difficult to deal with the fact that things are going to sometimes go wrong whether I want them to or not and I can't do a darn thing about it. At the top of my anxiety inducing list at the moment is a life-long friend who I can see slipping back into the grip of depression (and potentially self-destructive behaviors) after a pretty stable year. She lives far away and even though I know I couldn't fix it if I was there it still adds to the feeling of helplessness I have about it.
But for each negative there is a positive, and the fact that my FIL came through his prostate surgery with flying colors is a true blessing! Additionally, we have been pretty healthy so far this cold season here at the Reed house and Grant is turning into a truly fabulous sleeper! And thinking about the fact that this time last year I had a puppy peeing all over my house all the time and now there hasn't been an accident (knock on wood) in months makes me do a little happy dance!
(I just realized I put a successful surgery and a housebroken dog in the same list of blessings - obviously one is a little bit bigger of a deal than the other but I'm thankful for all I can get!)
So I suppose that simply putting one foot in front of the other will get me through it all - good and bad, positive and negative, easy and difficult. And I am so thankful for every day that I have my family and my health and there is no better time to remember that than during this month when we celebrate the true meaning of Christmas...